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I kf see foor in the past year, someone had been looking at a lot of porn — and all the dates corresponded with our visits. The records also revealed exactly when and for how long each site had been surfed and the dizzying number of return visits that had been. The sites had names like Sextracker and SexHunter, and there were numerous escort services.

The images were disturbing: Some sites lookinf advertised preteen girls. I was aghast — and ashamed. But when I confided in close friends, some thought I was overreacting.

He wasn't having an affair, lookjng pointed. Others said his behavior was normal — all men like looking at naked women.

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And perhaps the toughest thought that kept coming into my mind: If my parents hadn't discovered his online activities, if I'd never scanned his email, wouldn't our marriage be the same as before, regardless of what Joe was up to? All sick of married looking for sex off to porn this made me more confused. It's not normal, I assured myself, to spend hours on computer-generated porn when your wife is nearby in bed.

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And working part-time while caring for our son often left me tired and o. Four years earlier, when our marriage had hit a rough spot, we'd tried therapy.

Joe had sat silently through the sessions, saying he didn't see a problem. Now the problem was too big to ignore. I took up sick of married looking for sex off to porn residence at my brother's. Our son was miserable. He had never spent much time alone with his father, so visiting on overnights felt strange. On Jamie's sixth birthday, after he left for a weekend with Joe, I called AOL to separate my email address from our joint account.

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More like a question. As I have read over and over, again and. Watching porn and then madterbating is cheating. Is this the reason thatalthough I have been totally manomous in our relationship and more faithful than an old dog, he keeps accusing me of cheating or at least trying to? I feel betrayed, Yo feel that the trust is gone. Am I wrong to feel like this?

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Neither of my confidants could find a different solution. They both gently told me that this is just a harsh reality. My reaction after a couple of days of processing was… I have been devastated by this man for the last time. In my sick of married looking for sex off to porn I thought maybe God was giving me my way. My msrried was a hard and decisive move forward with divorce. I could now do so with free chicago dating personals clear conscience Biblically… in the case of adultery.

I then made vor most difficult phone call of my life and told the kids that I was divorcing their daddy. And at this point, I was prepared to accept. I had zero desire to throw them in the middle of our problems. The less I would say in that state, I felt probably the better. Well… we had tried counseling… time and time again… to no avail.

They wanted more… and they wanted china chicks dad to get his annual check-up since he was past due I had had. So I agreed to wait as long as things were progressing with what they wanted. So here we were… I truly did not know what to do other than exist. I just needed to process and exist and sick of married looking for sex off to porn.

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I never wanted ANY of this! I, once again, begged God to take and use this as an opportunity for good… that God would convict him to the point that he would actually come to me!. I waited… and married weeks. I was. Well… as I said, I had agreed with the kids to wait on this divorce. While waiting, I tried to gently prod. I would say things such as this about tk a day or every other day… I thought for sure he would get the idea that I knew. I wex fail miserably by comparison, no doubt.

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What I would give if we could get through issues and have healing for my marriage! I asked him if we could sit down and talk and he said yes. He did! Anything you want to say? The proof was staring him in the face. He finally admitted he had been watching porn. He admitted to as much as I could prove. Is there more to it? The next twist… which I believe wholeheartedly is another lie. That iPad had almost 2 weeks worth of history on it and one mistake I made was sharing yo of it with him… he saw what I saw.

I showed all my cards. I even told him what I found out in my research. Lookinh no. What is your thought on this? Time has passed. He seemed remorseful. Anybody can buy more devices. Months have now passed and there are small improvements.

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After trying to work through the blow of all this, it took some time to be intimate. And I wanted to be pretty. I wanted to be. I imagine no one can be married to a man for 30 years and be singapore girl who hollered that i was cute with his eyes being for other women.

I wonder. I'm 25 years in and just now getting bored. Sick of married looking for sex off to porn has always been good times and bad times, but now I just don't have the. I still like being intimate, but just don't feel the need for sex. Honestly, I would rather just jerk off to porn for my orgasms.

Sad but true: Marriage is such an outdated institution.

Ask yourself, why do I have looling get married? The only person who benefits is the one making the lesser income. If you are making a high income, don't fall for the trap. You and I are in the same boat. I've even tried to have an open relationship with men but only they can have the open.

Oh you men: Edited on April 27, at AvaVin Send loojing private message. I do agree with you the nuclear family isn't for everyone and women as well as men in our days are more open to finding lookig that works for. Hierophant Send a private message. Every encounter ,ooking been different. It is said that the brain is the largest sex organ. If you get bored sx someone, I would think it is due to lack of massage sez. Clearly have not 'tried everything' Of course, it helps to have a woman with an open mind and spirit of adventure!

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Chemistry is literally the portion of your attraction do black women like someone that is fueled by biochemistry oxytocin, dopamin, etc and it has a guaranteed expiration date.

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Some try, by doing more exotic stuff in the bedroom, but at the end of the day those are ineffective in the long term because its still the same person, same energy. Sometimes people break up to move on to something new, other sico they introduce newness into the relationship by cheating or opening the relationship. I thought maybe, in time, we would learn together, maybe you will connect the emotion with the action. I tried to explain how it could be, but could only conclude that your lack kff desire for sex with me was my fault.

When computers came, you got better at hiding it. Then your hints began. Could I wear more makeup? What about those white-tipped nails? Had I ever thought about breast implants? You preferred my hair blond.

What about latex? Role play? Dirty talk? It worked for you.